Hey.

I just want to take a minute to say that I am going to become inactive.

Well, not completely inactive, but I won't be as regular as I used to be. I just feel that I need to just...move on. I mean, this place is great, and I feel a little selfish because you, who have helped me when I was in need of a helping hand, and you who read my ridiculously long replies.

Not to mention that everyone is always in need of a helping hand, but I just can't bring myself to actually remain active here. Everyone has to follow their heart, and this is where mine is pointing. It of course makes me feel selfish again. But, that's just who I am, and what my heart says.

So, I want to say thanks.

It means so much to me what you have done.

If I get a new art site (something like a professional art site) I'll let you know by posting it here, and you don't have to look or anything, but it's just enough that you have helped me.


Peace Forever,

DocRobert

Hey guys! Sorry about my inactivity on my end of not responding to your messages and whatnot. I've been kind of recuperating from a stressful week followed by an exhausting one week trip (funny how when one goes on vacation you come back tired...)

I would like to say thank you in advance for all of the support that I have been getting lately for all of my photographs that I have uploaded.

What's weird is that now I get like, an average of 2.3 favourites per day.

THAT'S INSANE!

Only you guys could do this, and I thank you for it. Sometimes I don't feel like I thank you, or any of my friends enough for being so awesome. It always warms my heart to know that every one of my friends actively and willingly cares about me. It's really, really special...and something that I can't put into words.


On another note......

I WENT TO FUCKING GREEEEENNNNNDAYYYYYYYYYY!

I have no words to describe the Godliness that was the Green Day show.

It was completely first rate...everything.

It would be a put down to say that I had a spiritual experience there. An absolute put down.

And the opener of the band, (half the reason why I was there) was FRANZ FERDINAND! I love the shit out of Franz. Actually, when they came on stage to cover for Green Day I was the only one dancing pretty hard, because Franz Ferdinand is sort of small in Kansas City.

But, anyway, I'm a 320 lb. and 6'2" dude, with long hair (for a guy) and a big, bushy beard, so I'm easily noticable. But, since I was the only one dancing around, Alex Kapranos, the lead singer of Franz Ferdinand actually called me out of the crowd, told me that I was awesome for dancing so hard, then played the song Michael for me! SO AMAZING!

So, while the Green Day concert, I did just about all I wanted to do.

I got about 6 feet away from Billy Joe Armstrong, and Mike Dirnt.

I moshed.

I got hit in the face.

I got a contact high.

I had a couple sips of beer (which I thought was terrible) given to me by a 16 year old girl who threw up later on in the concert because of alcohol poisoning. Actually, she only let me "share" her beer because I was that one bearded dude who was dancing during Franz Ferdinand.

Oh yeah, and when I got hit in the face, it was from another....face. We made head to head contact, he didn't feel it because he was drunk, but to me it hurt like hell, for a moment. Then, after that, I realized that the people that I was moshing with helped me up to crowd surf (320-pound-man-crowd-surfing-amazingness) at a free concert at the beginning of the summer at the Beaumont Club.

When Holiday came on I was one of those thousands of people who chanted that awesome part near the last half of the song...Seekah to the president yes-man, bombs away with our punishment!

Then, when they played some of their more revolutionary songs, and slower, meaningful songs, I stopped. Time stopped. I stood in the middle of the crowd, unbeknownst of the chaos around me, and connected with the music and the band, better than any could ever. My hands felt electric, my head was swimming, and I was in nirvana.

To say I had a religious experience would be an understatement.

WRITING IS ART TOO!

First off, I would like to direct your attention to this [link]

It's a poem that I wrote describing some certain things that I feel, and it would be wise not only to read the poem, but also the comment because I tried to write as many things in there that I could.

But other than that, I see that it has been time for some changes around here.

I have taken some pictures again...but this time.....most of them....are.......IN COLOR! *GASP*

I don't know how I pulled it off but my colors this time came out better than my black an whites. I think that this would signify my moving past my old photographical traditions and trying to become a better photographer. Usually, people are either black and white or color photographers, but now I have figured out how to do both...it's exciting.

Because, well, I guess that moving on in life, like I have been lately has allowed me to think outside of the box more than I have been already. What's weird is that, in the past year and a half, I feel as if my life hasn't moved anywhere. It's been the same thing every day that I get up, deal with some sadness of the exact same sad thing, expierience some happiness every now and then, but most of all, never being free. Not one day for the past year have I been free to do what I please...which, I find extremely essential.

Some people strive to have the same kind of life everyday...but if that was my life, like it was, it would never be happy. I don't really see how anyone could be happy that way...the human body is made to adapt to all kinds of situations and other predicaments. I would strive to use them all in the best way possible someday. That ranges from physical tests, to psychedelic experiences, to moments of orgasm. I want to see, feel, experience it all....I don't want it all, I just want a taste of it...I want to know. I said to one of my online friends the other day that one day I will dive in to the dark waters of the unkown, and I strive for this wholeheartedly. I want the unknown blackness, or whiteness, or rainbowness to swallow me whole until I have seen the very end of it. Yet, there is no end of it, so I devote my entire existence once I have made loose ends meet to explore, and maybe chart the unknown, so that some adventurous souls could make the unknown known for all people.

Some would say that making the unknown known would be counterproductive because you are changing the unknown, stealing its beauty.

But I would say otherwise. People always strive to know what is out there, and in fact the unknown invites you to find out what it holds...and if there is one thing that I can say about the unknown is that we will never run out of it, the unknown is limitless as the universe seems to be.

You know, as a matter of fact, the universe is not the end. There is something beyond that. Something wonderful. I don't know if it will be bad or good, but it will be wonderful. I wish to see those alternate places, those universes that lie outside of human barrier and mind. I wish to live and to live unchained, to drift out into space, time, immagination, without a hint of wanting to turn back.

Anyway, I stole this quiz from a good friend of mine

All About The Quotes!
Choose 3-10 quotes from the directed media: (I may choose more though, depends on how I feel about it)

Music:
"Come out and live in a religious
community in a beautiful place out in the country..."(In A Beautiful Place Out In the Country
By Boards Of Canada)

"The Past Inside the Present" (Music Is Math by Boards Of Canada)

"I'm playing the game
the one that will take me to my end
I'm waiting for the rain...
to wash who I am" (I Wish by Infected Mushroom)

"Excuse Me While I Kiss The Sky"(Purple Haze by Jimi Hendrix)

"My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here on the other side" (Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance)

The Whole Damn Song Of "Mayday" by the Flobots I will use as a quote. [link]

"And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter." (Stairway To Heaven by Led Zeppelin)

"I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you ...
We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care ...
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
'Cause I've found God?" (Lithium by Nirvana)

"Head like a hole!
Black as your soul!
Id rather die! Than give you control!" (Head Like A Hole by NIN)

"Meet me on my vast veranda
My sweet, untouched Miranda
And while the seagulls are crying
We fall but our souls are flying" (We Both Go Down Together by The Decemberists)


"Meditation, metiglation
Hokus Pokus, all-seeing eye focus feeding
off human energy like vampire locus" (City of The Sinful by Juno Reactor)

Movies:

"It's survival of the fittest Sam, and we got the fucking gun!" (Pi)

I hate the movie but...
"Your Body Is a Theme Park" (Hellboy 2)

"Where Are We?"Person 1
"I don't know."Person 2
"It looks like the foothills."Person 3
"The Foot Hills of the Headlands."Person 4 (Yellow Submarine)

"We're navigators, we're aviators, we're eatin' tators, masturbatin' alligators, bombardiers, we got no fears, we don't shed no tears, we're pushin' the frontiers... of transcendental perception." (Across The Universe)


"You have options, man." Person 1
"Yeah, jail or Canada - and they both suck!" Person 2 (Across The Universe)

"Just tune in, turn off, drop out,
drop in, switch off, switch on, and explode." (Across The Universe)

"We had two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a saltshaker half-full of cocaine, and a whole galaxy of multi-colored uppers, downers, screamers, laughers... Also, a quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of beer, a pint of raw ether, and two dozen amyls. Not that we needed all that for the trip, but once you get into locked a serious drug collection, the tendency is to push it as far as you can."(Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas)

"Fairy Child: Where's Daddy? What's he doing?
Fairy: He is guarding our home, son.
Fairy: There has been a war, and this land is lost.
Fairy Child: Why can't we fight and win, Mommy?
Fairy: Because they have weapons and technology." We just have love. (Wizards)

And, to finish it off, one last music quote.

"I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay I'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home"(Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance)

No offense, but ... There are some people who are getting too fake on dA. They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually re-post this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and re-post in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Re-post this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends".



I remember about 4 years ago that Tales From Earthsea was being fabled to come out. Being an avid (more like addicted) fan of Miyazaki's movies, I was exuberated to hear that a new film would be made that would have some magic battles in it, something that I have always wanted to see from Miyazaki.

Yet, the anime feature would be made by his son, Goro, the father, Hayao.

Since then I thought that it would be interesting to see the animation of Hayao compared to Goro.

When the movie came out, people said that it was an all-time-low for Studio Ghibli, the animation studio ran by Hayao.

The animation was fabled to be choppy and bad, among other various negative comments. It was so bad that when Goro apologized to his father Hayao for the movie, he would not talk to his son for a long time.

Well, 3 years later from the movies release, I downloaded the movie and watched it last night.

It was amazing!

The scenes were beautiful in almost every frame. I felt as if I were finally stepping into a European-Magic style Miyazaki movie like I have always, always wanted.

Plus, the storyline was riveting and the characters were top notch, and, to my eye, not choppy at all.

What else that I found in the movie that I liked the most was that,

THERE WASN'T SEXIST FEMINIST BULLSHIT SEWN INTO THE STORY!

Just about every Miyazaki movie has it and I am so tired of it! I mean, I love the stories, and I love the movies, but do you have to shovel that doubleplusgood crap around? Sheesh.

You know feminism is just something there is too much of. I mean, it was a good thing in the early 20th century, because, chauvinism was bad back then, very, very bad.

But, today, for some reason, feminism is creeping back into our media and our culture.

Just turn on your TV, you're sure to see one of those commercials, where it always seems to frame the man as a stupid and irrational person, where the woman is smart, calm, and collected, and always seems to have the answer to any problem.

There are also commercials that play with the concept that the wife "controls" the husband. Like I said, not blatantly, but play.

And it doesn't stop there.

In recent movies and shows there have been a rise in feministic material. Not a great lot, but it is vaguely noticeable.

What this eventually do will institute another era of sexism, but this time, women will control men. It's getting to the point where some women are acting like they control or they are only with the man for sex. So, when they marry, and have kids, they divorce, take the money, and take the kids, while the guy has to pay his ex-wife every month.

This trick almost always works because the courts almost always rule in the favor of the wife.

Also, people like Hillary Clinton, Rosie O'Donnell, and Ellen Degeneres have been preaching these ideals for a long time, while going seemingly unnoticed.

Anyway, I am not saying that all women are like this, but, there are an increasing number of these instances, which are part of a growing trend in America and no one seems to be doing anything about it.

If you all want to know where I stand on sexism to know if I just angry at the female population, let's put it this way: I am anti-sexist.

I really hate sexists of all kinds because they are so wrapped up in a system of "I'm better than you are", and it's all because someone is different than someone else. Usually, it's because someone feels inferior, so the person will speak against anyone that is different than him/herself so that person will feel like they aren't inferior anymore.

While I am at that point, I will now address something else.

Why do blacks always think that whites are being racist? Well, not all blacks, the really cool black people I know don't really care about racism. But, the big names in the black community, like Jesse Jackson, and Al Sharpton, scratch that, all of the people in the NAACP think that the whites are still trying to be racist against the blacks. They think that the big white man is still trying to hate and discriminate only because of color.

Almost everyone in America knows about all of the programs that are set up because of racism.

Even though those programs racist too, racist against white people.

Take for instance, a white man with a PhD who graduated at the top of his class, and a black man with a master's degree who graduated in the middle of his class both apply for the same job. Because of Equal Opportunity laws, the black man would get the job because of the sole fact that he is black, even though the white man worked incredibly hard for that PhD.

Most black people, and especially the black leaders still embrace Martin Luther King Jr. for all that he did for civil rights, and most white people do too. I do. He was a great man. Yet, what has been going on today has basically been racism against white people, and the black leaders who are almost always racist still embrace King's message of anti-racism!

This is a civil rights nightmare! You know I am afraid to look at a black person wrong because I don't want him to think that I am racist. If a black person would say that I was racist the whole entire school would think I was racist, and basically having that as a name tag until I graduate, and most likely beyond that, too.

If you are walking down the street, though, it's worse. If a black man calls you a racist, some of his friends could come out of nowhere and gut you like a fish.

If King were alive today, he would take to the streets for protests against this racism...and NO I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT REVERSE RACISM LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. WHAT WE CALL REVERSE RACISM IS RACISM; FINE AND PLAIN.

Here is another definition of this anti-white racism.


I will say two words.

Nigger

Cracker

Which one had more effect on you? Both are racial slurs, but they don't mean the same race. One is for blacks, the other is for whites. Both have basically the same meaning though, and that is a bad name for a race.

But which one can you say in public? Which one is a cuss word? Which one would get you filled with lead if a person of the opposite race were to say it in a dark alley?

Personally I don't think that words matter that much, but surely, surely you can see the logic in this.

The last thing I would like to point out about this anti-white racism is this.

The second that a black president comes up for election, people vote for a black person because he is of the minority.

If America truly did not care about race, why was that happening? Shouldn't the black candidate and the white candidate be exactly the same so that people could just focus on the politics like they should be? Barack Obama could be a horrible President (which I think that he is going to be politically), but people would vote for him anyway because he is black. Only because he is black.

I remember about two months before the election had started, I saw a shirt with Martin Luther King Jr. and Obama on it. It said "Finishing the Dream". WHAT THE FUCK HAS OBAMA DONE TO EARN THE RESPECT, NO, THE RIGHT TO BE ON THE SAME SHIRT AS DR.KING? Nothing, and if you actually think he has you must be having delusions of grandeur because he hasn't kept up on any of his promises and we haven't even seen the end results of his economic stimulus package.


Now, keep well in mind that this shirt was made before his election! Keep in mind that at his campaign trails he was making people faint and swoon for promises and hope of change....and change what? If he is going to change how things are done then it will only be for the worse, because, in the government, there are only two ways of working. Getting worse, or getting worse while the people think it is getting better.

So, was it still race that elected Obama? I don't think that either candidates politics were better, but Obama was elected only because he knows how to work and deceive a crowd, have them lingering on false hope and broken promises. When he was elected, my school had every TV turned on to hear his Inauguration speech. 5 million people showed up to hear it. Was this done for any other President? No. Was any other President a media icon? No. So why is he? I thought America didn't care about race....

So, I hope you have taken this to heart. I want you to understand that I am not a sexist or racist of any kind, in fact I am very against each, but in these days I am feeling very discriminated, and afraid for my future. If you want to know the best remedies for racism or sexism, just keep both thoughts out of your head and not care about them. It's the only way to stop because, from the teachings of Dr.King, you can't fight racism with racism.

Because, the person who wrote this is an Aryan male. People could walk down the street and say that I'm a Nazi or something like that because of my hair, skin, and eyes.

Isn't Ironic that someone like me would be so against both of those ideals I mentioned?

Anyway, safe Journeys and always keep an Opened Mind.

Another medical journal from:

DocRobert

Sigh...so mellow...

I don't really know how to describe how I feel right now....it's just kinda....

Well, let's put it this way. I am not sad. I am very happy right now, but I am not bursting with happiness. This is a feeling that I have long forgotten. When nothing is really tense and everything just kind of eases. Where everything just is.

In fact, the only reason why it feels like this is becasue I have actually taken time to relax, which, by chance is something that I mysteriously forgot how to do. Just to...chill beyond chill.

You know, when you are all mellowed and chilled out like this, The Incredible String Band is the best kind of music to listen to. I mean, it's all about the simple pleasures of life and enjoying them, like I am right now.

Anyway, I got a feature on a journal, so, now I have to feature him back. I'll feature 4 more people if they go ahead and comment here, so, have at it!

I'll try to match his great critique of my works as best as I can, although I am almost too mellow to get deep into anything, so, like I said. I can try.

What I see in 's gallery is an abundance of surreal and gorgeous landscapes that are very calming, yet still retaining energy.

For example, this piece here [link] reflects a sort of digital-esque feeling that almost seems post-90's in some respects, which is something that you don't see a lot of.

The next is [link] an outlook of a calming sea, but with a large metal foundation made of spheres coming out of it. What's odd is that a bit of a "floaty" feeling is noticed when observing this, continuing off into a pink infinity.

The last is this: [link] . Most likely the most energetic piece that has balanced color and an overall unified look to it. It seems very reminiscent of a piece called cloud gate that resides in Millennium Square in Chicago. The colors, chilled, and the scene sharp, makes for an incredible and clean piece of Digital artwork.

Trying to become a member of

UMG!

Do you know what f***ing sucks?


Ear infections! OH MY GOD THE PAIN!

I have a combination of external and internal ear infections, and in both ears.

Although I do have some prescribed Hydrocodone, it doesn't take away all of the pain.


On another note, I saw a wonderful movie last night called A Scanner Darkly.

If you don't enjoy this movie, then you don't have a mind!

I swear, it was one of the most imaginative and captivating movies that I have ever seen.

It also f***ed with my head like Fight Club did.

Although usually people do not like the acting of Mr.Woah (Keanu Reeves) he nailed every last thing in this movie. The movie is classified as animation, but the characters are too lifelike in order for that to be true, so I think that the style was created by vectorizing the film, which would give you that effect.

Anyway, go out and pirate, borrow, or (if you just so choose to play by the rules) buy it. You won't be sorry.